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♥ 8:11 PM

the forgotten.

♥ 4:36 PM

there's some major problem about this posting thing. rawr.
anyway, had olevel listening compre just now. i didn't noe that listening compre is broadcasted on symphony 92.4fm until the dj announced that.
i really love the music. i like classical music expecially in such a nervous atmosphere. it will be good if oral could be like that too.
candidates can be hold in a room filled with soothing calm music.
then when it's ur turn, u move to another room.

listening compre was not bad at all.
but i had an answer different from others and that is qn 6.
almost everyone i've asked put the answer C but i put it as B.
i had already shaded C at first but changed my answer to B.
haiz.

there's ss essay test tmr!
haven't study at all yet.
i'm going to die. DIE.

failed my chem test by 5 marks.
teacher is super angry as only 24 out of 43 ppl passed the test.
those who failed have to copy the answers plus workings five times.
lucky i had finished that in sch if not i may not have time for ss and maths.

solar eclipse occured just now in the morning but it does not affect singapore.
it's such a pity. D:
it's like 500 years once and we can't experience it. D:

ps. happiness is nothing more than good health and a bad memory. -Albert Schweitzer

♥ 7:16 PM

took these quiz from jodi's blog since i'm so bored.

ABC About You Questions:

A - AVAILABLE: unanswered. xD
B - BIRTHDAY: 14 august
C - CRUSHING ON: celebrities counted? hehheh.
D - DRINK YOU LAST HAD: pokka green tea.
E - EASIEST PERSON TO TALK TO: myself. hahas.
F - FAVORITE SONG: no preference.
G - GUMMY BEARS OR GUMMY WORMS: gummy bears. they are cuter. hahas.
H - HOMETOWN: singapore, hougang.
I - IN LOVE WITH: everyone i know. :D
J - JUGGLE: 2?
K - KILLED SOMEONE: i kind of killed my hamster last year. D: D: D:
L - LONGEST CAR RIDE: bus ride counted? it's the coach from SG to KL.
M- MILKSHAKE FLAVOR: vanilla. thats the only milkshake i've drank before. =P
N - NUMBER OF SIBLINGS: 2.
O - ONE WISH: can i have one more wish please? :D
P - PERSON YOU CALLED LAST: i dun remember.
R- REASON TO SMILE: just smile as i like.
S - SONG YOU LAST HEARD: 孤单心事
T - TIME YOU WOKE UP: 6.05am
U - UNDERWEAR COLOR/PATTERN: ehhhhh.
V - VEGETABLE(S): no veggies for me please! xP
W - WORST HABIT: repeating myself automatically i think. =P
X - X-RAYS YOU'VE HAD: once i suppose. when i had sth wrong with my lung when i was very little.[i just came to know about it this year. ><]
Y – YOYOS ARE: cool. hahas.
Z - ZODIAC SIGN: dog! :D

Random Questions About You:
Spell your name without vowels: jy. just my initials.
What color do you wear most? white.
Least favorite color? hmmm. dull colours?
What are you listening to? songs.
Are you happy with your life right now? not really. too much tests and exams. i'm going berserk.
What is your favorite class in school? it had always been art or music(not LE) but now, recess?When do you start back at school/college? ehhh. dun remember.
Are you outgoing?: nope. sadly. D:
Favorite pair of shoes?: my white sandals which i had worn only for 2 times cos i scared i dity it.
Can you whistle?: no. ):
Write with both hands? right hander but gonna try left hand. ((:
Walk with your toes curled? thats painful.

THE DO'S:
Do you believe there is life on other planets? yea.
Do you believe in miracles? yea.
Do you believe in magic? no. but they still fascinates me. hahas.
Love at first sight? maybe.
Do you believe in Satan? maybe?
Do you believe in Santa? maybe.
Do you know how to swim? erm.. nope but jieyi style, maybe. hahas.
Do you like roller coasters? YEA. even though i've only ride kiddy roller coasters before.
Do you think you could handle the stuff they eat on those reality shows? if i could eat them too, i'll definitely go for it.

THE HAVES
Have you ever been on a plane?: yes
Have you ever asked someone out?: yes.
Have you ever been asked out by someone?: yupp.
Have you ever been to the ocean?: yeea.
Have you ever painted your nails?: yes. only transparent ones for me.

THE WHATS:
What is the temperature outside?: i dun noe. warm?
What radio station do you listen to?: 933fm.:D
What was the last restaurant you ate at? i dun rmb. it's been a long time.
What was the last thing you bought?: pokka green tea.
What was the last thing on TV you watched?: 肥田喜事 last night.

THE WHOS:
Who was the last person you IM'd?: what's IM'd?
Who was the last person you took a picture of?: i forgot.
Who was the last person you said I love you to?: i don't know.

CRYING SECTION:
Ever really cried your heart out? yea.
Ever cried yourself to sleep? sometimes i cry cos of my dream. haha.
Ever cried on your friend's shoulder? nope.
Ever cried over the opposite sex? nope!
Do you cry when you get an injury? of course
Do certain songs make you cry? yea.

HAPPY SECTION.
Are you a happy person? maybe?
What can make you happy? anything. food is good enough. ((:
Do you wish you were happier? yea.
Can music make you happy? of course :D

LOVE SECTION.
How many times have your heart been broken? nope.
Have you ever loved someone so much that you'd die for them? yea. my family members and close friends? xD

LOOK AT ME.
What is your current hair color?: forever black. i'm not going to dye.
Current piercings?: ear.
Have any tattoos?: not. ever.
Eye color? it should be black too.

IN A BOY:
Favorite eye color: i don't know.
Short or long hair: better to be short.
Height: a head taller than me. then my head will be at his shoulders. haha. ((:
Best clothing: i don't know.

HAVE YOU EVER
Been to jail: never ever.
Mooned someone: mooned?
Laughed so hard you cried: of course
Cried in school: yea.
Thrown up in a store: mrt, yes.
Done something really stupid that you still laugh at today: many.
Gone skinny dipping: ehhhh?

THIS OR THAT
Pepsi or Coke: pepsi.
McDonald's or Burger King: mcdonalds.
Single or Group Dates: dunno.
Chocolate or Vanilla: both.
Strawberries or Blueberries: strawberries.
Meat or Veggies: meat and a little of veggie.
TV or Movie: TV!!! movie is good too. :DD
Guitar or Drums? both.
Adidas or Nike: not very sure.
Chinese or Mexican: chinese?
Cheerios or Corn Flakes: corn flakes
Cake or Pie: both are equally nice.

♥ 3:58 PM

flunked my chem test.
so depressed.
i totally dunno how to do the WHOLE paper.
and i even forgot the most impt formula!
and then, i died.
i went berserk and giving up on the paper.
i'm failing for sure. 0 marks.
the first person in history to get 0 marks for test.
prepare to see the teacher and get asked why i fail so badly
and get remedials and stuff.
i think i'm going to sink into serious depression.
i get so depressed easily even though the encouraging side of me kept comforting my depressed side of me.
why must we have tests and exams?!

okay, i shld get more optimistic.
O-T-I-M-I-S-T-I-C, please.

haizz.

ps. "choose a job that u like and you will not be working for the rest of your life." quoted from tv mobile a few months ago.

♥ 8:45 PM

totally screwed my oral today.
i needed far too many many prompts and the two teachers looked super solemn.
the one that asked me the qns gave me a feeling that i had answered unneccessary things to the qns.
i hate exams!
i hate it!
RAWR~~

tmr have binomial test!
scared i fail.
hehe. i miraculously passed my emaths test by one mark. LOL.

ps. good luck to me. xD

♥ 6:26 PM

it's been quite a long week.
boring lessons and stuff.
just had maths test just now. it's not very easy and yet not very difficult.
hahas
i hope i can pass this test. i had not been passing any maths test, whether it's E or A maths, not even twice(there's once. hahas)

arghhh!
next wed o'level chinese oral!
xuete. i'm not prepared.
i'm so dead.
i scared i fail oral.
i scared my o level chinese overall get B3 and below.
if i suay suay get B3 and below, i cannot take higher chinese next year!
RAWR! i dun want to give up higher chinese! i've been doing higher chinese for almost 9 years. i dun want to quit it like that.
getting abit stressed and nervous now.
i'm going to take the oral soooon and i'm the last one in my group!
so scary~
hahas.

ps. dun get depressed so easily, look at the brighter side.
but is there a brighter side?

♥ 9:50 PM

happy birthday my beloved kim bum!!!
ahhhhh! so cute! hahahahahas. :DDD

♥ 10:08 AM

long time no post. it's not that i never use com but i dun noe what to post about.
just went for a morning walk to church with sixuan.
it's her birthday today.
hope she have fun! :DDD
HAPPIE BIRTHDAY! aishiteru wa` iloveyou` woaini` sarang hae yo`

special song dedication to sixuan,
[copy and paste this url first! :D]
http://www.imeem.com/people/LLFSuJ/music/Hj6p4EXA/jin-tian-ni-yao-jia-gei-wo/

今天你要嫁给我

春暖的花开带走冬天的感伤
微风吹来浪漫的气息
每一首情歌忽然充满意义
我就在此刻突然见到你
春暖的花香带走冬天的饥寒
微风吹来意外的爱情
鸟儿的高歌拉近我们距离
我就在此刻突然爱上你
听我说
手牵手跟我一起走
创造幸福的生活
昨天已来不及
明天就会可惜
今天嫁给我好吗
*rap*
夏日的热情打动春天的懒散
阳光照耀美满的家庭
每一首情歌都会勾起回忆
想当年我是怎么认识你
冬天的忧伤结束秋天的孤单
微风吹来苦辣的思念
鸟儿的高歌唱着不要别离
此刻我多么想要拥抱你
听我说
手牵手跟我一起走
过着安定的生活
昨天已来不及
明天就会可惜
今天你要嫁给我
听我说
手牵手我们一起走
把你一生交给我
昨天不要回头
明天要到白首
今天你要嫁给我
听着礼堂的钟声
我们在上帝和亲友面前见证
这对男女现在就要结为夫妻
不要忘了这一切是多么的神圣
你愿意生死苦乐永远和她在一起
爱惜她尊重她
安慰她保护着她
两人同时建立起美满的家庭
你愿意这样做吗
Yes I do!
听我说
手牵手一路到尽头
把你一生交给我
昨天已是过去
明天更多回忆
今天你要嫁给我

i've been feeling so depressed easily nowadays when there's anything that concerns about church.
i wonder if they even noe that i exist. and i'm right there.
i really hate this kind of feeling. i just dunno how to speak.
i dunno how to communicate with them.
i just nid someone to talk to me first.
i'm just this kind of person. i just dunno how to talk to them first.
this personality of mine makes me so anti social and maybe despised by ppl.
i dun like bondings or shld i say, i hate bondings.
bondings make me even depressed. i've always thought bondings can bring me closer to the others.
but yet i think i'm even more invisible.
they said only those usual ppl went for bondings so abit no point.
but then in cell already felt so lonely, how am i going to have the courage to go for bondings?
i dun think anyone will noe how i felt.
i think they just think that i just dun like to socialise with other ppl and talk to other ppl first. and is that i dun want to talk first.(no offence. sorry!)
right, i do admit, i dun dare to talk to other ppl first. but NO ONE seems to be approachable.
everytime i hope i can try to talk to other ppl first and other ppl can talk to me.
even if they ask me a question, any stupid question, i will get so overjoyed cos i noe i'm visible in their eyes. but such things dun seem to happen.
i felt so out. an outsider. an invisible person. a ghost.
how i hope i can get out of such state. but it seems so impossible, so far away.
i hate it. I H-A-T-E IT.
i'm losing the war with MR. DEPRESSION and MR. LONELINESS.
no one's there for me. no one's with me to fight them. i'm all alone. i'm losing.
i nid help. i nid support.
i just nid someone..

ps. nobody(church ppl) will remember me even if i disappear. D:

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